ASHOKAN

I  have reread  and rediscovered that repetition is also an important way of learning.
Old stuff:
My invention, my discovery, my thought,  my communication:
Should it go to you: should you be privileged to see. 
The world through my eyes, thought, mind, spirit, soul?
Can you understand? Should I be the judge? Should I leave it to nature?
My daughter's,Swathi and Swetha,  my grand daughter, Aariyana , my son's in law , Vaibhav and RENs. my teachers, ekalaiva , principle! All contributed to my better understanding now of events that happened then, they were all then preparations until I am ready to understand?
I was a willing student, I was willing to learn from anybody, anything, anyhow,
any where, any time, any day or night, any unit?.
My sister's,Mallika and janaki, my brother"s in law laxman and kalyanam, my ataxia opened my eyes. I was blind in my thoughts, feelings, emotions, anxiety and aspirations.

Flow, comfort, convenience, expertise, ease of movement, the authenticity, we're prime motivations!
Graceful nuances, grace, mellifluous flow of sound and body movement were prime movers.
Can I over train myself at any time? 

Can hind sight give you insights, understanding, clarity, direction? Do you follow? Can you preach, teach, follow, understand, experience, exploit ?

Does an exercise of 15 minutes bring all  your  cylinders up to performance?

Flow, body language and comfort level, throw, expert level, experience, delivery level,   all yours and differs with individuals as well as acceptance from receivers! It depends on moments!

Oversight, misunderstanding, lack of insight, clarity level, wrong thinking, lack of proper justification,  clarity of blame game, wanting to escape blame or responsibility, depending on others inefficiency etc.  were unconscious goals, unknown, now unacceptable. Reviewing was waste of time and works against times, efficiency etc. confidence was certainty against ones ability and self confidence and wrong faith and beliefs.


Grace, holding, effect and singing is all yours! Every effect has an understanding, clarity and direction and a way of bringing together the audience? Have you known, mastered these? 

What makes it unique.? Ever lasting? Stamps the mudhra of originality on a song. Is devotion, dedication or your personality  playing a part?

Is attention, awareness, understanding, focus, insight and experience at its peak? What have you done or not do  to keep it so?Attention to all sides so only one side is open and you are sure that is the only position free and would accept a number?

Spirit, throw, energy, tempo, all you bring out in the song to sustain! Your preparation, throw and delivery counts. Your tempo determines the spirit, the energy. The success of the presentation. Self confidence increase when you make others dance to your tunes. Your comfort label and confidence goes up! Your self assurance and certainty goes beyond your doubt and uncertainty.  Can you see this in all your actions? Are you self assured? Self confident.? Self aware, self understand? Is new clarity adds to your clarity and direction?


Next in line, is when  one up or one down is filled and then go back. You will find the two's to become one's and surer and easier to solve in the line of eighty one digits from 1 to 9 only 9 times, 300 years old puzzle of Chinese origin which is used to sharpen the mind at various levels. It makes the mind sharp and body secure. Sudoko game.

Each place and positioning has a reasoning behind it as to why it is the unique in that position. If you are able to find that and retain that for 81 positions you should have mastered the gaming aspect of instruction. It takes roughly 8 followed by 21 zero's.

You become a master of space and time. Devotion, dedication or surrender of ego! It certainly can be attempted!

Voice training, breath and yoga to prolong each activity without strain. Ease and maturity.

Voice is good with breath, what training can do? Yet to exploit and understand?

Today's count 5550 sudoku games completed. Things learnt immense. Covered only half!

May be!

Abhinayam  - power to transform sound into art form.  Power of interpretation into aspects known and unknown?  Gestures the power of conveying thought, speech, action, imitation, Hasta mudras in relieving pain? Carbuncles and dance hasta mudras. Some clarity when you understand it. Mudra in selling communication silently.  More of clarity when you least understand it.  But you know that it is a different kind of clarity and also at a different level. Only very few understand.

Attitude unconsciously gives out forms of expression, understanding, integration,  separation etc. You least expect to give out so openly.


When angry or emotionally upset, don't take a decision.?  Either way, it will not be correct.

Attitude is very important. It convey's in action that can be felt  as something's that you don't want to convey!  It's in body language, known and unknown. Read TEd lectures on unknown body language  by  : put body language in query box : you get
Amy Cuddy. Your unconscious body language shapes your thought.   2012  in Ted, October. 
If you put Vedic math's. Or matrices you could get a bird's eye view on the subject.

Today 's count. 5600 sudoku games successful.  Total attempts 6081, dated 30-07-2013. A.m. To - night is Meenakshi  's birth -day ,Read aloud at Swatha's instruction's before posting. Promised: Will read all the mail's again and again as per new self education policy ! It was done but silently, now loudly until I can hear and understand? Experience, newer clarity dawns? Repetition is worthwhile!

You are blessed that you can get an insight, an understanding, a clarity, a new understanding and better clarity beyond earlier knowledge level. An understanding and then an experiential level! A new way of understanding issues!

Isolation, separation, not  speaking deliberately, quietude can give a different kind of learning and observation. Mind can justify and play many tricks. Do you know?!
I did!

Look up Amanda Palmer  in" the art of asking": silent communication in Ted? Financialy
she used to make 70$on a Tuesday or 90$ on a Friday consistently a week considering she had no regular clients or patronage and she dealt silent emotion of love, happiness or dejection and sadness as her stock, perhaps a smile when the mood called for. She was happy 12 hours standing painted as statue, bride 8' tall. Stead fastness and strength were her assets as she grew stronger from standing still for 4 years with lot of pain as bonus and tolerance as asset. Patience as a bonus! As a reward!

Beat and rhythm has not swayed a reef out of its life for they support nature at nourishment, for a little reflection brings this forth. 
Let wisdom shine upon movement and life, for change and transformation are the roots of life and living!

Time and communication releases destiny! If you are getting sleepy, stop all work for it is a signal of failure, extreme need for attention, awareness, concentration, attention, focus, better insight, understanding, clarity and direction. All your inner faculties are haphazard?
How can you succeed?

Where eyes set in knowledge, understanding, clarity, direction, insight, intuition flows in. Kethu  as the initiator of knowledge, seeing an element of comfort that can be felt, understood, distributed, to look and feel for the ease of flow, the line that separates, does not allow to enjoy the smoothness in the flow, the removal of obstruction, and reinforcement of faith in the act of sleepy moods. Acknowledge and  accept natures gift of retirement and rejuvenation of organs, thoughts and feelings, actions and emotions with a little bit of music in perfection!

Induction of information and new knowledge and certainty flows in from unknown quarters. You know it is new and old knowledge mixed and delivered in a new mouth.
Sometimes unknown formats. This I learnt when I reflected on thygaraja's  keerthana of Rama at age of 11 , in a language un known to him before delivered  by Vishaka hari. Strange things connected in human mind. Reflected in different form. Accepted strangely. Today in 300 year 's Doyen of music. Meters and formats! Unknown principles of arrangement and information, new forms of delivery, new formats of pleasure!

Today's count 5640 correct sudoku sum's. 07-30-2013.

Mental  attitude was at  risk taking and not certainty. Not of a vey dying kind. So mistakes one after other. Don't care attitude for warning, strange behavior!

Read the sequence again, practice, make mind free of possibility of unconscious mistakes. Then start trouble free. Does not matter if you lose time.
Mistake free should be the goal.

Go over every issue thoughtfully until you claim ownership.

Question: Why order, method, sequence.? 
Why form and format? Look at the result!
Sthiram, Sukham, Asanam.
You have to win at unsteadiness, discomfort, and then posture!
Balance idea is important!

System, method, madness! In analyzing small things and correcting them, big things do not arise! And everything is small and very manageable!

Things when known and are written down, we strangely come to know, how ownership happens!

Change, transformation, hope, affirmation, certainty, action inaction.

Reach a point of action in inaction and inaction in action that makes you realize relaxation! The feel in voice, breath in voice and a kind of humility conveyed that is available in breath itself that is looked for in training, in delivery, in receptivity, in surrender, in music technology conveyance. Force, energy , power, conveyed with richness and maximum humility. 

Secured each of the entries,  before,  during and after as to why and how no mistakes came about and an attire of cheerfulness and an attitude of security that  was built into every activity. The cautioning and warning were exaggerated. Wrong in terms of returns and were not life changing.

A number in each column sets you free!  1 to 9, 9 times 81 in all. 9 times reinforced!
diligent repetition is one sure way of reinforcement, dedication, devotion, surrender to passion of accuracy and correctness. You can be correct each and every time if you  want to, naturally, unconsciously all time.
Without effort, without fail, each and every time, with least effort, even unconsciously!
I did not check before! It did or set in as habit? So attitude of don't care came up and the aspect of loss was definitely mine!
A little deeper looking  gave insight into other possible correct areas! Developed patience.  Tolerance for time, energy, efficiency. This did not come up when finding place and fitness.  More than one method of finding fitness regarding place and time or sequence gave  out position when others fail!

The instinct to correctness is natural. The expression, attitude, experience, feel, insight, ability to see more than one way, and courage and boldness, delivery, presentation and acceptance. Whole gamut of experience  and attitude and you chose these! And are  boldly presented by them.

Voice, expression, soul, presentation, musicality. Transfer of humility in expression as a special quality.  Goodness, gracious, humility as embodiment of qualities in personality.

If sequence is correct order, it eliminates all problems. 

Dynamics of sight, sound, transformation by music rendering beauty and grace, pitch and intensity. Read, aloud, listen and understand and then correct the flow, intensity and thought of conveyance. Do not insult the audience by useless repetition. They do not care for them. They do not believe in mimicry, for them it is entertainment. Not the repetition.

Little tension and deeper awareness a deeper clarity, a deeper pathway opens up, visible and clear in ways of sequence, discipline and rhythm, all these is a measure of comforts levels.
Did not wait for the 5 lighted ones. Lack of patience, over confidence with knowledge, previous pattern and practice. Not reading instruction once again. Lack of preparation and clarity in understanding. 

Feel, temper, temperament, something to do with age, delivery, presentation, maturity, go beyond the words of the music, it has to with absorption, surrender, inhibition, more in the song than the song itself. It could be summer used as expression. To lose identity and gain greater focus, better clarity and sharper   understanding of what is conveyed. Life and soul in the music did not come out!

Achievement of goal is the determination, I'd a kind of personal devotion, certainty  one takes in one's own being!

Change in attitude, free, open, clear, crystilline, consise, robust, welcoming, mingling one. Singing, expression and attitude are  very important.